It’s Not What I Say.

Recently I posted this video on how our little ones are watching everything we do and immitating us.

This morning was a perfect example of that.

As I sat at the kitchen table doing my devotions and reading my husband walked into the kitchen and started talking sweet to me. I kind of answered but kinda blew him off too, after all I was deep into my reading.

Meanwhile, Owen was drawing at his table.

JJ noticed my dis-interest in what he was saying and asked me what was wrong. The fact is, nothing was wrong I was just distracted. So I told him nothing, that I was just into my reading. I must have had a tone that implied “please be quiet, I’m busy” but at the time I would have denied it.

Obviously, Owen noticed. Little children are just so dang smart! We really don’t give them enough credit.

A few minutes later JJ attempts to talk to him by asking him questions. Owen’s response?

“Dad, Please stop talking to me I’m drawing right now“- said with total tone!

OUCH!

I told him it was wrong to talk to his daddy that way and that he needed to hug him and apologize. Obviously my actions spoke louder. He heard what I didn’t say. He heard me telling JJ that what I was doing was more important than talking to my husband. And Owen learned therefore that what he was up to was more important than paying attention to his dad.

Gosh- sometimes I’m just so amazed at what a high calling parenting is. How it points out flaws we would not see if it weren’t for these little reflections following us everywhere.

God have mercy! Keep changing me.

Aging Gracefully?

Before I start this post please understand that this is not a plea for compliments! Please don’t compliment me but instead share how you have dealt with the issue yourself. Anything you may have learned may help others and myself!

I have been dealing more than ever with the issue of aging… I know, I KNOW I am only 31 what do I have to complain about? I guess the fact that my skin does not look like it did when I was 20! Its forcing me to realize I am FAR more vein than I ever thought myself to be. I didn’t realize until recently how much security I have put in my looks. The fact is, I know that I am not the plainest girl in the world, as well as I’m far from the most beautiful… but apparently I am devestated by the idea of eventually being old.

Believe me, I know how absolutely wrong this attitude is. I WISH I could tell you I have a great attitude about aging. I WISH I could tell you that I don’t look in the mirror and think about lifting my lids a little and botoxing the line between my eyebrows. I wonder what age I will have to be before I should lift the skin between my chin and my neck?

I look down at my arms and legs and see my mother’s skin. I loved that skin on my mom… so soft, so comforting and warm. But on me? I like the smooth skin that I’ll never get back.

I know when I’m 40, 50, 60 etc. I’m going to either laugh at my 30-year-old self or want to slap her! Intellectually and spiritually I know I’m being rediculous and ungrateful. So how can I get my obsessive vein self on the same page?

I WANT the Lord’s perspective. I WANT my heart changed. I want to value what is important while still maintaining what he gave me! In saying all that, I am not against some forms of plastic surgury… I just know that at 31… that this is not healthy. That I need to stop it!

I want to age gracefully. Some day I’m going to be nothing to “write home about” in the looks department, and I want my spirit to shine through that. I need to focus more on things that are truly important.

Do you struggle with this at all? Am I just horribly insecure? I didn’t THINK I was… but maybe I am? Any words of wisdom? Any one else figure out how to focus on this less?

Owen’s Birthday Present (belated post!)

I found this on my *desktop* and realized I never posted it! It is a short video of Owen getting his birthday present. I had his 2 little friends that live a mile away stop over that morning so he would have friends to play in it with. We have already enjoyed this gift several times!

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