Not 100% sure why I’m posting right now. :) I do…

Not 100% sure why I’m posting right now. I don’t really want to expose you to another rant on how hard it was to have an almost 3 year old today on our second day with out daddy. Or how my throat still hurts a bunch. Or how if Owen hits Lukas in the face one more time I may officially lose it (I’m trying so hard not to lose it!) Or how I am literally learning the “praying without ceasing” principle through my children. Though my prayers often resemble…”God Please help me”, “Jesus, what do I do?” or quoting to myself “slow to anger, abounding in love.”

I’m so completely blessed to have easily, and surprisingly gotton pregnant with 2 precious boys… and this fact makes any complaints about it seem…. I don’t know, shallow? I don’t want to be a negative person, let alone blog. But truely… I’m exhuasted.

I just don’t know how to get through to Owen. I know, consistancy. And I’m trying, I’m doing all I can to be consistant. Most of the time he acts like he doesn’t hear a word I say. He acts chipper and goes right along his disobedient way. And there is really no one else he does this too. When he is with other adults he is kind, respectful, and incredibly polite most the time. (which gives me hope!) But to me… he is constantly testing. Constantly. The thing is, he is SO me. I mean I can’t tell you how often he reacts how I feel like reacting. I feel like in ways I get him, because I was so much like him. For some reason this seems to make our relationship difficult, though I can’t make the connection as to why.

Anyway, other than that. The weather is nuts. It has been beautiful. My grass is green and lush, all my trees lining my lot are in full bloom. The daffodiles and tulips are up! And then… It’s FREEZING TODAY and it literally snow. I mean enough to accumulate in my flower beds. Oh spring please come back! I was ready to put the dreaded winter coats away!

On another note, my husband is IM’ing me some of the interesting Cuban Billboards… will post after this.